I need you. I need you in my life as much as I need food or water or sleep. For the longest time, I’ve had a thirst deep inside to be known and understood and loved for who I am. I longed for someone to share my life with…the ups and downs and everything in between.
I longed to know God…
Then you walked in, though you were there all along, quenching my thirst, satisfying my longing…and I knew you were the one—the one I’ve been waiting for all this time.
When the disciple is ready, the teacher appears…
I love you and I need you more than I can usually find words to say. But you know that, you know what I am thinking before I have even begun the thought. Today and always, know that you’re the one for me…and I never want to let you go…HERE I AM, LORD!
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In all stages of my life I am at different places in the stages of growth: at home, at the office, in my life plans, in my inner life of prayer. No wonder I’m feeling scattered. I guess the best this to do is…place my priorities where I need to in order to get all the areas in the same general place on my journey. All of these life stages help me to appreciate that there is no particular rush to get somewhere, everything is in His time. God calls us to wholeness, to live as Jesus lived and love as Jesus loved. God calls us to live in such a way that one day we w
ill never again feel the hunger of the heart.
ill never again feel the hunger of the heart.“We live by faith, not by sight.” 2 Corinthians 5:7
There is more than one way of seeing. We view the world around us with our eyes, but by doing so, we don’t fully grasp or apprehend all there is in life. Those things we “see” by faith cannot be envisioned by our physical eye. That’s why doubters disbelieve them. But when God speaks to our hearts, it is as real as if we’d viewed the truth plainly in front of us. Like Paul, though our eyes cannot see it, we have a spiritual certainty. I have seen beauty of the majestic oceans, mountains, rivers, valleys; seeing these I only begin to understand how good my God truly is, but who am I? Who am I supposed to be? I do not need much, I do not require these lavish things, but I do need love – and I have found it, of this I am sure…
“I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through him who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:12-13
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Reminiscing a great moment in the past – please, join me:
Having just walked barefoot through the cool grass of a quiet park near my home – something you can only do in the spring or summer…here I sit, under the shade of the tree. I’ve seen these arms, I’ve heard these sounds, and I’ve felt this feeling. As I lean back, I feel his strong but tender arms engulf my fragile body. A feeling of completeness surrounds us. Everything is silent, though the neighborhood children play not 30 feet away. The perpetual sounds of the nearby river, mixed with the constant resonance of elongated breaths, are the only sounds we can hear. As I sit on the cool ground, leaning back into him. I feel each heartbeat as if it were my own; beating faster and faster now. As we gaze outward together the setting sun paints a picture over the land and sky. An orange glow amazes us both. A soft summer wind rolls by and the sweet smell in the evening air reminds us of the past few months. The summer is nearing its end. Soon the leaves will be changing colors, no longer green and vibrant but shades of golden yellow and orange will overwhelm the wooden statues. God is here, He is everywhere. The omnipresent Lord sees us, knows us, and loves us. Here we sit, thinking about our every move – and this is what I really thought of on this day… When I accepted Jesus Christ as my Savior, God promised that He would never stop forgiving me, no matter what I do wrong.
“But if we walk in the light, as He is in the light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus, his Son, purifies us from all sin.” 1 John 1:17
That means God continues to purify us even while we are trying, as I am, to live the Christian life. He does that through the blood of Jesus Christ, the blood which saved me forever. God said that we are completely forgiven because Jesus paid the penaly for our sins when He died on the cross.
“He has done this through the death on the cross of His own human body, and now as a result Christ has brought you into the very presence of God, and you are standing before Him with nothing left against you—nothing left that He could even chide you for.” Colossians 1:22.
And as the auburn glow seemed to fade behind the tree line in a land too far away to walk, I glanced over my shoulder just in time to catch a small wisp of his favorite cologne as my hair softly ran over my face and tickled my nose. I let out a small childish giggle and the passionate silence was broken. Hand in hand, we walked tall across the park to the dock near the water’s edge and gazed outward together one more time – no longer just two, but three.
“Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work: If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up! Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone? Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken.” Ecclesiastes 4:9-12
